But there are these thoughts half form trying to find the words. I struggled with them. I know what I’m trying to find something to do with Christmas-with Christ really-I know that because I have this sense of urgency, such as with Scrooge, I have this sense that what I have to say it must be said by Christmas day. I know it’s also because there are songs, one of which I can’t quite remember, playing on the edge of my memory. I can’t bring my mind exactly lyrics and don’t think I can hum the melody, but I remember something from a charm song – it’s Christmas Carols of the sort, something in the voice of Joseph addressing newborn Jesus that song playing on the edge of my memory and that is saying something.